I experienced peace and freedom from anxiety and worry without medication

 

"I experienced peace and freedom from anxiety and worry without medication. Breathing gives me curiosity and gets me into a state of hope and surrender. - Mona Khosla"

Pranam Mona, thank you for your time today for this call. As informed earlier, this interaction intends to know more about your journey with NV Life and the impact it had on your overall health & wellbeing and quality of life so far.

So, let us begin by knowing a little about you and your life’s journey so far. Can you tell us more about yourself before joining NV Life and what brought you here?

I am 43 years old and I live in Jalandhar, Punjab. I am an Arts and Fashion Design graduate and currently a marketing professional supporting my husband in his business. We have two lively daughters in their teens. My sister-in-law, Hem Khosla introduced me to NV Life three months back. The timing was just right as I was seeking permanent relief from my aggravating back pain that had persisted for the last 1 year and had crippled my life.

 

 

Hopelessness and Fear - I felt my life was falling apart.

 

So how were you managing this pain and ailment over the past year and how did it affect your life?

 

Initially, I was okay and mistook it for stress but it persisted and became intense. Soon it started affecting my sleep. I would often wake up in the middle of the night with a sudden jerk and then would find it exceedingly difficult to go back to sleep. For days, I would have sleepless nights. Anxiety became routine. I had started taking medication as prescribed by my family physician. Things only became worse when my doctor diagnosed me with disc bulge and fibromyalgia. My fear was growing and life seemed to be falling apart.

Initially, I was in denial as to how can this happen to a perfectly healthy and positive person like me? I felt weak and drained and cut off from social life. I was ashamed to go into my friend circle for fear of being taunted. They might say, “Look at her. She boasted of being such a perfect, healthy and spiritual person and now she is down and out.” I was hiding from everyone including myself.

What was the impact of this in your ecosystem (family/friends/society) and in turn on you?

I felt a constant state of worry and anxiety. My growing distress made me joyless. It affected my relationship with my husband, as I became more demanding and irritating.

I had stopped socialising despite having a vibrant social circle. I did not want to go out as this pain and frequent mood swings would spoil my day and family atmosphere. I became overprotective of my daughters. I said no to one of our daughters going abroad for her higher studies, as I was suddenly worried about her being on her own in a new set-up. I was turning hopeless day by day. I began searching for anxiety treatment without medication.

 

Read on with curiosity……..her journey from Control to Surrender, from resistance to flow.

 

 

 Looking back at your life in perspective, what do you know about yourself that was not in your awareness before joining NV Life? And what are your key insights or wisdom having de-coded your suffering and having examined your life during the programs?

 

  

The Search Within

 

I started seeing my ego and stubbornness behind all this. It reflected in my relationship with my husband. I was feeling alone and helpless and was seeking his attention and care. I saw that I was a

very dominating and controlling person and I never accepted it. As I realised this it brought out a lot of shame in me. It was mostly coming from my morality, it hit me hard as to how I had dealt with people so far.

I believed I was a good and caring woman who always gives her best to every relationship – a good daughter, a good wife, a good mother and a dependable friend. I always followed my father and his advice. I was trained to be a good girl you know.

However, as I looked within, I had a lot of anger for him for not being good to my mother. He was never there for us. His business was his priority. I pitied my mother for being a weak and lonely woman, not able to express and assert herself. Somewhere I took on her hopelessness and tried to fill the gap created by my father. I became the protector of my family.

As I reflected on my life, I was carrying this entire burden on my shoulders trying to prove to my father how good a daughter I was, but deep down I had anger on him and men in general. I wanted to control them and seek love and attention at any cost. It was as if I had shackles on me and I was not able to break free.

What are the one or two fundamental shifts in your approach and perspective to your suffering and in your day-to-day life, which give you hope and faith?

I have realised that stress is like a boil and I need to heal it. Once I took up responsibility for my suffering, I walked towards anxiety treatment without medication. Chetna provided me with just the healing space that was needed. Vedna opened up my emotions and uncluttered my mind. I experienced peace and freedom from anxiety and worry. Observing the breath gives me curiosity and gets me into a state of hope and surrender.

My anxiety is largely reduced due to NV techniques making my mind calm. I experienced healing as my faith in anxiety treatment with breathing increased. I let myself flow into the process and guidance through the programs.

With breath, I can now be calm and at peace in stressful situations. My comfort with the opposite sex is growing, as I am no more bound by morality and self-judgment. I am feeling a new sense of freedom and can express myself more freely with others. There is a positive effect on my relationship with my husband and other males in the family. I am free from my shackles.

I am living in this curiosity mode now. I am being in the mode of surrender. As Sir often says, Pain is the gateway to mystery and realisation. Just accept it and it will open your spirit.

How is your ecosystem (Family/Friends/Career/Society) reflecting the new you and what shifts are you noticing there?

My family life has changed for the better. My relationship with my husband and daughters has got a fresh lease of life, as their old nagging and irritated mother is gone. There is a shift in my routine. I am now able to sleep early, read the book, or watch the LMS lectures and wake up around 5:30 am, fresher and more energetic. It is a new life. I learned how to cure sleeping disorder in 21 days.

In my social circle and girls' gang, I am now seen as a more open and expressive person. They are now asking me what did I do to be this new me. So much clarity and wisdom have come out and I am happy to share it with them and invite them to experience it.

 

Was there any magic moment in your journey with NV Life, that had a profound impact on you and it triggered the cure in you?

 

During a Gurukul session, I was asked to reflect upon the question “why did you marry the man you are married to?”

I realised that I got married to seek his appreciation and love. That was the time I realised that this is it. I saw my inner conflict where I was seeking male protection but I always wanted to dominate and control men. My anger and disconnection from my father were the root cause. It broke something open and I found my freedom to be with people, especially the opposite sex (men).

As I reflected on my relationship with my father, I connected to the vision he held for me. He wanted me to be independent and grow in life. A gush of love and gratitude engulfed me. The woman in me came alive. I connected to my mother’s pain and patience for holding the family together. My judgment for my parents collapsed at that moment. I experienced their blessings.

What lies ahead for you? Where is your spirit now and what is your message for those who are looking forward to walking the path of cure?

The entire NV Life ecosystem is there to support and guide our journey. I would like to give people the hope that anxiety cure without medication dependence is possible. I stumbled often but Sir and the coaches held my hand all through. The Book, LMS and techniques - all are nothing less than a miracle that I so was waiting to come to me. I was a seeker and here I am walking toward hope and wisdom day by day. The door has opened for me.

 

 

Thank you, Mona, for so freely and authentically sharing your journey with us. I am sure it will inspire many to walk the path of cure. All the best to you for your forthcoming program with NV Life and your personal journey as well. See you around. Pranam.

 

 

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